MY WORLD OF TRUTH
Wednesday 29 January 2014
JUST BECAUSE I SAID I LOVE YOU.
JUST BECAUSE I SAID I LOVE YOU.
Just because i said i love you, you ride on my emotions like
a drunk rodeo, every day you make me wish i was never in this state of
compassion and affection. In my sleep i see your face, the picture and expression
it carries makes me jump from my dreams and face this horrible reality.
You use my affections against me at every opportunity that
come your way. My friends tell me quit and stop the madness! My heart is holding me hostage; am rooted on
the same spot, i can’t run and no where to hide. Consciously you have invaded my
soul, broken my shield, flattered my defences and now am at your mercy, like
lionel messi. Just have some mercy.
To you love is a game, waiting to be won, this heart to you
is like a rebel waiting to be captured, to you this body is like a dry
bush waiting to be consumed by fire. Quietly i sit in my room and drift into
another beautiful realm; surreptitiously i walk into the waiting arms of a
sweet imagination and reminisce on our past. Surprisingly what i see makes me think my mind is actually playing tricks on me.
Just because i said i love you, is that enough reason to
choke the air of emotions out of me, you leave me helpless and speechless at
the level of numbness that dwell in your soul. They said this feeling is
fulfilling but what i am made to feel by you is so depressing and vexing. I ask myself, can I take one more dose of
this hurt and pain? Will i be strong enough to walk out of this scary reality,
is my heart and soul ready to let you go. I need some answers before i lose my
precious mind to the hands of insanity.
Just because i said i love you, you turn my friends and
family against me, my world is at your foot stool. Like a spy you work happily
for the enemy and like a secret agent all you do is done in secrecy. Your
thoughts and actions are known to you and you only. Like a footballer, you only
play and show me respect when i pay your bills. Isn’t this a life of make
believe, a totally scripted epic movie of disaster.
Now i realise those sweet words were just mere decoy, i have
been lured, tempted and captured. Like a rocket launcher you have successfully
engaged my heart into a journey of regrets and wishes. Instead of me to hate
you, i would rather thank you for making see and taste the other side of love.
I will forever be grateful for what you have made me to
learn grudgingly. In your mind you think you have done such a great harm, but
you never know how armed my soul is now. Thanks to you for making me identify
my weakness. All just because i said i love you..
A BITTER WOMAN.
A bitter woman is filled with venom like a black mamba, she
looks at you with raw and obvious hatred, she curse you from her heart, she
hates you right from the root of her bitter soul. Flee at the sight of this
looming danger, run for your life, because the longer you stay the faster you
decay from within.
A bitter woman swallows spit but spits out blood; shesmiles, but wears a cracking frown deep inside her soul. In silence she weepsat her own bitterness, she wished for something else, but once bitter they saynever sweet again. Even in her sleep, she stays conscious in this crazy stateof mind, which reflects in dreams. Who made her bitter is not the question, but
who else is going to taste and dine in her bitterness is the reality before us.
A bitter woman is pregnant with bitterness; she is ready to give birth to
disaster. I am sorry for the next generation because they won’t be left out of
the rot of this anger.
If she smiles at you look behind you, because there might be
something brewing around you. She is so bitter, that no iota of sweetness is
left inside her. I shiver at the scary sight of this woman, i run without
looking back, let my feet take me more than 20ft far away from the presence of
this bomb waiting to explode. I would
love to make her smile again if only she is ready to let go of the bitterness
inside her soul, let the drum roll for the beginning of a new dawn, no one
wants to be caught in the web of her bitterness, and her coverage is bigger
than the World Wide Web.
Tuesday 28 January 2014
HOW TO HEAL A BROKEN HEART.
HOW
TO HEAL A BROKEN HEART.
If you want to be true to yourself, you may never have the
opportunity or chance to avoid a heart break, whether you are a girl or guy.
What you should be bothered about is how to heal your broken heart and recover
very fast like the heart break never happened.
If you want to be true to yourself, you may never have the
opportunity or chance to avoid a heart break, whether you are a girl or guy.
What you should be bothered about is how to heal your broken heart and recover
very fast like the heart break never happened.
1.
Let the tears flow if it is there, do not try to
wear a straight face when your heart is bleeding, it could be depressing.
Shedding of tears is surprisingly one of the therapies for a quick recovery, so
when you feel like crying, please find a quiet place and let the pain out. If
you don’t allow the tears to flow, things around you will begin to tear and
fall apart. So don’t be scared to express your emotions.
2.
Never try or beg to be taken back, it is so not
productive and healthy for your emotions, it only prolongs the heart ache and
emotional trauma. Once the deed has been done, just try and look elsewhere or
better still give you a break.
3.
It is
just like when a football club says they don’t want a particular player anymore
and the player keeps forcing himself on them, I bet you, such a player will
grow old on the bench, and later lose taste and flair for the game itself. The
same goes for you when you try or force your way back to the same person.
4.
Try to break every form of contact with the
person, do away with their numbers, pictures, and clothes if you have any,
shoes and so on. It may sound harsh, but the more you see those things the
harder for your heart to get heal. Don’t you know that for you to get healed emotionally
you must get over your past love/crush/fling. So do yourself that favour and
clear their thoughts from your memory and your store. A broken heart never gets
healed if the memory of the past still haunts it.
5.
Never seek solace in alcohol, drugs, food, work
or a particular habit or activity that can easily plunge you into addiction and
depression. Avoid them as possible as you can.
6.
Get closer to your friends, communicate more.
Talk about how you feel with people close to you. Do not bottle your anger,
pain, fears and regrets. They are big loads that need to be shed off or shared
with someone close to you. The more you talk about it, the better you feel and
the quicker you recover from the heart break.
7.
Never tell yourself or make yourself believe you
can’t move on without that person. That is the side effect of a crazy and blind
love. Always tell yourself that “life goes on anyway”. Psyche up your mind with
books and good spirit lifting music.
8.
Do not isolate yourself; isolation gets your
heart so weak and sad. Get out of that cocoon of melancholy, mix up with
people, find new adventures and get ready for the next challenge; they will
always come no matter what happens.
9.
Get ready for some flash backs, the images and
thought of the person in question seem not to want to let go in any way. Know
that it may take time to get rid or delete most of these images from your heart
and mind. So brace up for that, to be on the safer side avoid isolation.
10.
Be slow to get involved romantically with
anyone, getting back into a relationship immediately after a heart break is not
good for your heart in any way. This will not give your heart time to heal and
mend properly before another taste of romance. You need to gather strength and
courage, if you enter into another relationship almost immediately; it puts you
in a very vulnerable position.
11.
Try to see the beak up or heart break from
another angle, like maybe it was actually a “good riddance to bad rubbish”.
12.
Give yourself some time, like a target. In the
next 3-6months you should be over and done with mopping, ready to pick up the
pieces and get set for the new race.
13.
Do not hold any grudge against him/her, be free
from the inside, forgive the person and do not harbour any form of vengeance or
hatred in your heart, so that you can easily move on with no left over anger
and pain in your heart. With this kind of mentality you are good to move on to
the next phase with no hang over.
