MY WORLD OF TRUTH

                                                          JUST BECAUSE I SAID I LOVE YOU.

 

Just because i said i love you, you ride on my emotions like a drunk rodeo, every day you make me wish i was never in this state of compassion and affection. In my sleep i see your face, the picture and expression it carries makes me jump from my dreams and face this horrible reality.

You use my affections against me at every opportunity that come your way. My friends tell me quit and stop the madness!   My heart is holding me hostage; am rooted on the same spot, i can’t run and no where to hide. Consciously you have invaded my soul, broken my shield, flattered my defences and now am at your mercy, like lionel messi. Just have some mercy.

To you love is a game, waiting to be won, this heart to you is like a rebel waiting to be captured, to you this body is like a dry bush waiting to be consumed by fire. Quietly i sit in my room and drift into another beautiful realm; surreptitiously i walk into the waiting arms of a sweet imagination and reminisce on our past. Surprisingly what i see makes me think my mind is actually playing tricks on me.

Just because i said i love you, is that enough reason to choke the air of emotions out of me, you leave me helpless and speechless at the level of numbness that dwell in your soul. They said this feeling is fulfilling but what i am made to feel by you is so depressing and vexing.  I ask myself, can I take one more dose of this hurt and pain? Will i be strong enough to walk out of this scary reality, is my heart and soul ready to let you go. I need some answers before i lose my precious mind to the hands of insanity.

Just because i said i love you, you turn my friends and family against me, my world is at your foot stool. Like a spy you work happily for the enemy and like a secret agent all you do is done in secrecy. Your thoughts and actions are known to you and you only. Like a footballer, you only play and show me respect when i pay your bills. Isn’t this a life of make believe, a totally scripted epic movie of disaster.

Now i realise those sweet words were just mere decoy, i have been lured, tempted and captured. Like a rocket launcher you have successfully engaged my heart into a journey of regrets and wishes. Instead of me to hate you, i would rather thank you for making see and taste the other side of love. 

I will forever be grateful for what you have made me to learn grudgingly. In your mind you think you have done such a great harm, but you never know how armed my soul is now. Thanks to you for making me identify my weakness. All just because i said i love you..